Kona Hawian CoffeE!

Second day in a row I've woken up @ 740am to go to yoga class! I'm determined to get back on track. That will consist of when I get my check buying groceries to last me two weeks so I don't spend excess money eating out, going to the gym at least three times a week, cleaning my room at least once a week, staying organized, focusing on my studies, working hard at work, making money, keeping care of the things i do have. It's super independent women time, over this way! anyone can appreciate that, ya girl has bills to pay! Chillen at crossroads right now downing a small coffee, yesterday it was french vanilla, today its sweetie chocolate something, and the kona straight out Hawaiii! I have an exam in two hours, Ive been studying feel like I know the information, and I don't want to over work my brain! This guy that my homegirl a-dreezy is feeling is standing in front of me, he treated the people in front of me with such equality and love that I feel like shit! lmao I wish adrian was here to see that, she'd be like let me go get his number right now! haha as soon as these two girls walked into the cafe I felt they were at unease with their environment. They weren't used to being surrounded by college students on their laptops, golden retreievers running around outside, and hot white men philosphying about life on that patio. I kind of observed them in their essence, as if I was better. Until A-dreezy's boy stepped in the building and taught me a little something something. For one be a better person, treat everyone equally and if you sense they feel out of place do you're best to make them feel comfy. The more you practice at this the more natural it will be. So when the time comes and you're with someone you really do care about, and THEY feel out of place you will have the practice and sophistication of making them feel comfy. Today in yoga I concentrated heavily on my breathing, its the only way I could keep up with the class. We were doing normal poses, all that I have done before, but for some reason my body was not as strong as I thought it to be. My breather and PRANA YAMA (breath inside of you) lead me through the practice, I left the gym feeling much lighter, appreciative, and aware of the birds and trees. You know I love the spiritual side of life but it won't make me money. Right now Looooveee my job at nordstroms its fun, and I know it's where I'm suppose to be right now in my life. As far as after college, and career wise, we'll see I just get this anxious feeling that I have to know NOW!, and I know that's not the case, I know it will come, but it feels good just to know. I do have plans, but you know plans are plans, and life is so unpredictable you're plans can always become un-planned. I do feel like I'm at a turning point in my life(not to be a hypocrit as I type my emotional expressions via blogger, rather than studying for my exam in two hours)BUT! i do feel comfterable with the information. I'm scared to over-study and forget the information. My family has come to a fork in the road, where it is TIME for me to step up my game! No more playing games, no more skipping work, skipping class, taking that extra drink, spending that excess dollar on bullshit! no its time for me to make a life for myself, and be able to support myself! I don't want to as my dad for money anymore, he has enough people he has to support and I want more then ever to take that burdern off his shoulders. Im so unique loving, giving, understanding and beautiful because of what my FATHER has done for me, the advise, wisdom, and security he has given me the past 21 years. I want that part of him to stay vibrant forever I can't dull his heart anymore by taking taking taking, like bob marley said you gotta give a little and take a little.! Ive done my part of taking now its time to give back to him! So Im focused man, no more spending money on bullshit, I have to acheive all my goals, and your either with me or not! ya know Im not going to say your against me, hopefully you're just doin you. But im on the path to rightouesness, me and my family the people I love, and those who understand the light that is guiding me!

French Vanilla Coffee Crossroads

Your Presence is missed A-dreezy!


Life is constantly revolving and changing, everyday is a day to learn! About you and about others. What can I say,everybody is officialy moved in at my crib. The house will consist of Me,Angelica,Adrian and Bobi:) hopefully this will work out for the best as of right now I can deff. say, that Im happy with everyone living in the house :) Ya girl is back to being 100% single, that means not talking to anybody! hahaha not even a man that hits me up on a daily. The way life is looking though I wouldn't have the time :) but boy would I love the comfort of a man. Its only natural, we were made for eachother. Sovreinty is ofcourse necessary , you must love yourself and know yourself before you can love and know someone else. Thats where I'm at right now. The next man I'm with should treat me like a queen , and I will do the same just for him. Relationships must be balanced me giving to him as much as he gives to me. The last guy I talked to was just about games, you know its like if you go all the way go all the way there is no half assing over here. Let me know keep on talking about men like they are the only thing that takes up my mentality. But I'm going to end that subject with "KEEP THINGS FRESH" never dull. Something is always sprouting whether its a relationship or a tree. Constantly changing and growing, until the determination of its life on earth, otherwise energy is constantly flowing, and dullness will be a sign of being unaware. Right now Im taking a course called Financial Management. We are concentrating on stocks and bonds right now, and determining the rate of return on a stock and or bond. The next test is tom. I'm doing well in the math, but will start concentrating on the differences between the two stocks and bonds.

Gosh.

I just wrote a really long post and it deleted:( Well I finally got a new laptop so I'm back into the internet world on full affect. Maybe now Ill know what random people are talking about when refering to the news. I felt like a complete dumbass when a lady was talking to me about the oil spill in the ocean, two days later after the fact, and Im like whattt?????? LOL yes I turned my cable off to, just another $50 dollar bill for shit i prob. don't need to be watching anyway. Once I graduate I'll grant myself the luxury of getting cable, internet is good for now. Newaiz its sunday morning, and Im here at whole foods, chillen w. time till 1130 then its off to work! I love my job so its all good, so many opportunities, its just my thing. I could deff. see myself working within the fashion industry for the rest of my life! I enjoy putting outfits together for people, helping them, conversating w. my customers, just the whole sales experience is awesome. I also can become a buyer for Nordstrms, but that would be in about 2 to 3 years, and would need me to move to Seattle ,Washington. Buyers use to be in Tysons but I guess they moved them all out, maybe it was to expensive to have office space in N.Va.Something to help them cut the costs Im sure. If I could find another great store to buy for like Saks, or Neiman Marcus that are based in N.VA or Miami, Nyc that would be even better. I don't think Seattle would really be my thing. Last night was so much fun I hung out w. a special boo no names ofcourse! Who you know is great! We went to escape and it wasn't as bad I thought. Got one to many drinks there and then headed to Infuzion which is mad nice but needs more promotion! Next thing I know my wallet is again gone. lmao well Im pretty sure its at my friends house, but when I went back to get their door was locked:( and ofcourse they were knocked out hahahahaha....So I come to wholefoods to get breakfest(only place that takes checks) and my check wouldnt read so I got breakfest for free:) I would say its a pretty beautiful sunday!!!!Sunday is the day this year my boo Zamzam and I both have our birthdays on a sunday this year. My birthday im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited. I love brining people together no bullshit i love the omg i havent seen you in so long, or hey girl how you doin scene. Just lovely:) Newaiz its going to be a pool party Super legit, a list on the front if your name IS on it than you can bring only two other guests. Also its going to be $5 for guys and $2 for girls. There is going to be to much money going into this to not charge people. and last year I had ONE person to bring me a gift out of life 50 people. RUDE! Shout out to (Gabe Itoka) for having manners big ups love! newaiz gotta head to work update later. Classes starting tom.!!!

What Do You Do When You Get Locked Out Your Crib?

Mind Food

The Real Thing
Love Should Feel Good

Love should feel good. Relationships that leave you feeling depleted, sad and making excuses are not based in love.


"Often in our lives, we fall prey to the idea of a thing rather than actually experiencing the thing itself. We see this at play in our love lives and in the love lives of our friends, our family, and even fictional characters. The conceptualizing, depiction, and pursuit of true love are multimillion-dollar industries in the modern world. However, very little of what is offered actually leads us to an authentic experience of love. Moreover, as we grasp for what we think we want and fail to find it, we may suffer and bring suffering to others. When this is the case, when we suffer more than we feel healed, we can be fairly certain that what we have found is not love but something else.

When we feel anxious, excited, nervous, and thrilled, we are probably experiencing romance, not love. Romance can be a lot of fun as long as we do not try to make too much of it. If we try to make more of it than it is, the romance then becomes painful. Romance may lead to love, but it may also fade without blossoming into anything more than a flirtation. If we cling to it and try to make it more, we might find ourselves pining for a fantasy, or worse, stuck in a relationship that was never meant to last.

Real love is identifiable by the way it makes us feel. Love should feel good. There is a peaceful quality to an authentic experience of love that penetrates to our core, touching a part of ourselves that has always been there. True love activates this inner being, filling us with warmth and light. An authentic experience of love does not ask us to look a certain way, drive a certain car, or have a certain job. It takes us as we are, no changes required. When people truly love us, their love for us awakens our love for ourselves. They remind us that what we seek outside of ourselves is a mirror image of the lover within. In this way, true love never makes us feel needy or lacking or anxious. Instead, true love empowers us with its implicit message that we are, always have been, and always will be, made of love. " DO


Graciela Bilis, MEd, MS

Free Thoughts Poh A Penny

Each one of these pictures, and the video depicts a message I would like to get across. First off I'm passionate for the evacuation of America from all countries. I seem to concentrate on Iraq for personal cultural reasons. Also Iraq is the occupation that people are familiar with most. Im' against the occupation for the sake of humanity. We have the ultimate power to delegate humanities role. If we want to fight to the death over land, resources,power ego, than we will, If humanity wants to accept the natural peace,understanding, cooperation, dissipation of anger than we can. United states is an activator of these war like causes, because we have the weapons, power, brand name, and use to have the funds. But we will fall if our egoic honchos at the top remain concerned about the greed of the dollar. Not for the dollar because of course this county has to bring in money to stay a float, but there many other ways to do this. Iraq is TRYING to be a developing country, but how can it flourish when others are stealing from it, or invading it, and killing its people. Iraq should be left alone, or funded to increase its Standard of living but not invaded and raped of its resources, and access of becoming a base player in the global economy. Having oil Iraq will be able to increase its exports bringing more capital into their economy and, increasing the value of their currency. Yea the united states needs to focus on the American people first when building good education systems, hospitals, shelters, and the base needs for healthy living ,but if you are to invade a country they need more help than us. Second, the second video you see THESE GUYS DUMBASSES ARE PLAYING A GAME!!!! are they not playing a fucking game. They are bored as all hell in Iraq with nothing to do that they proceed to kill a man because he is carrying a camera on his back!!!! ItS FUCKING DISGUTSTING! and I hope the affiliators including bush get their karma, Actually I don't care if Karma comes to them or NOT! I just don't want it to happen again! If we have globe with seperated countries, shit if they want to kill eachother go ahead! But how can I be a proud citizen of a country when I see something like this?!?!? We have peace here why not try establish the peace in Iraq? Man its so fucked up foreal Theres no reason for this! And these american soilders.......forealll......I hope I don't get my ass whooped by one, cuz its really not their fault...Majority of them don't know what and the real reasons why they are over there, but they are getting something out of it....Thats how I really feel..but Im out had to let some steam off...