Sorry

I guess I had a lot of umph to get out I need to STOP cussing like a champion lol...Not cute at all and its not going to get me anywhere.

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UGHH

NO time in the world to sit down and chill to just blog!! Lol so much on my mind first of all one thing about richmond that has got go to are these nasty ass men! Im looking cute for myself not for you to look at me and say OHH hey cutie, whats your name to get a taste of my sweet voice, and glance @ my ass when I walk away. Litearally every time I walk past one of those nasty asses, I think If my dad were here you would be laid the fuck out, and we will hurt you if my family were here you'd be laid the fuck out. Don't look at me you nasty ass and turn your fucking head. Seriously thats what I think everytime! Its soooo annoying! UGH I think next time it happens Im going to turn and say, "Please don't speak to me like that its' rude and your invading my MENTAL privacy so when you see me don't say shit like that to me" thank you. They'll be like damn thats one crazy ass white girl, or whatever they THINK I am. I almost want to stop every pretty girl walking in that direction like NOOOOO DONT GET MIND RAPPEDD! lol I know its a compliment but I mean really...not really...those guys prob. mess w. women with 5 teeth.UGH! Another thing that invaded my peacefull mind yesterday. I chilled w. a kid for A LITTLE while yesterday. Okay I went to highschool w. this guy and he was the nicest, shyest, sweetest guy. Now he drinks everyday dropped out of school and making racial comments right and left. I tried to be like yo. really calm down you need to get your life together and get on track, what are you doing with yourself, and why are you cussing every TWO minutes? But I couldn't get past the fact he was making racial comments, against EVERYONE I mean every culture, to the point he said I do things like a "white girl" and when I was leaving like come give me a hug and said oh I didnt know thats how americans do......Lol really get a life, there are so much more to people and the depths of our souls. When I talk to somebody Im listneting to their tone, what they have to say, even if it sounds hella phony, ghetto, sarcastic whatever theres a meaning behind that. Seriously peple get over yourselves, NOBOODY is that cute to be running around thinking they are better than anybody else. And I will be the person to tell you so....Or just let you marinate in your own bullshit. Lol ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE I got a job today as a personal stylist in the Active Wear department in Nordstroms. YAYYA...So Im going to be making crucial outfits, and sales hopefully move up and be the personal stylist for Nordstroms how DOPE would that be. OR Something you know your girl wants to make beacoup money and be a billonaire Im not scared to admit it. But Im leaving Suntrust..Im gonna miss the people I work with esp. Jone shes the fucking truth I really like hanging with her, shes like my lil outside teacher in Richmond. Lol But Im sure We'll Keep in Touch:) Newais Im outty bout to hit up the gym...
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Jump Up In The Air And Stay There.

Erykah should be coming out with a new album soon, and Im ready to cop it lol:)...Why is my life always so crazy, feels like I barely get time to chill back and breath these days. Its constantly going going going. Theres always something to get done, pay off, somebody to see, somebody not to see I feel like its eating me alive. I feel like Im at a breaking poing where shit is falling apart to the point I can't fix it. I just wish everybody would be happy around me, and make the right choices. I mean if you're happy then guess what the ones who love you are going to be happy your're happy. I just can't take complainers, and Im focusing on this myself. Im living more postively and find security in knowning every little thing is going to be alright no matter what. My main focus is my success and my happiness I want to be in a relationship although I just got out of a relationship. I wouldn't mind being in a serious relatinonship but with the right person, somebody who I can call on as my best friend, but also my lovah. If feels good to finally be free, this past weekend was dramatic but it had to happen. First of all I went home for vday, some drama popped off but it always does. Eric came down trying to be w. me for vaday, but I had to break it down to him that our relationship would never work, Tears were shed but at the end I have a very strong feeling as well as instinct that this is what needed to happen. God put him in New york to make it easier for both of us. He gave us this opportunity to realize there is somebody out there better for the both of us. Eric has such a beautiful heart, and I know that he is going to make a woman feel like such a queen one day. I learned from him, and grew with him through my awkward teenage years. The times I wanted to give up on life, and just say fuck it because I didn't feel good enough he always made me feel better. There was a great purpose for him. But that Purpose was fullfilled. I want to go on a yoga re-treat one of these days in the mountains, clearance of my mind is such a neccesaty, I wonder if I could find a beautiful place to go to thats not to far away from where Im at to clear my mind and be in a serene area. Ive been highstrung. On a postive note Im on my grind like shit, Ive been looking wonderful and feeling wonderful ive been neglecting the gym cuz of the snow but Ill get back @ it this week. Life is beautiful and I appreciate all I have been given. God is Love. *Oh yea Im not here to entertain you this shit is for my clearance of mind*

Two Weeks Deep Ow.

Ive been cutting back on the blogging because the grind has turned up. Never stopped just increased. Lol whatever I act like I'm busting my ass everyday I'm really not. Actually living the good life, school and part time work. Life is changing everday, and its only for the better. Im going to have a new family member soon, Mr.Doug Chapman so yea treat him like a Badawy if you ever catch him I don't think my sister has enough time in the day to sit back and read this but she'd be proud that Im shoutin her man out. Yeaaaaa girl I did that for you, lol newaiz you know Im still on my Get Rich or Die Trying, motivated I want to end up in a industry that I LOVE a Job that LOVE! man the more Im working @ the bank the more Im learning about myself, right now its getting me through my bills and putting extra bread in my pocket, but I won't allow myself to do it for to long. Im a rebel by law and my heart won't allow me to settle in a seat being paid for my time, when I aint really changing shit, Im just putting somebody elses ideas to work, their ideas to get more cash flow, but umm nothing against banking you know it gets the job done, its deff. a good job to have and I can walk away from in one day with more knowledge on my shoulders. I deff. paid off from working there, and still am working there and for a college job its deff. not bad. It was my sister's bday yesterday she turned 26......shes still a baby and Im still a baby but we're really growing up. Its crazy thinking my sister might be getting married withing the next three years and having babies,I really want my sister to beocme extremely succesufl and have babies soon, I think it will make my dad happy. He misses having his kids around, and having a grandchild I feel will shine a extra light in his life ;) I love my dad he's the best person on earth. Other then that I have a lot on my mind, just wrote a paper on the massacre of dolphins in Taiji Japan look it up if you give a fuck, if you don't then umm...keep reading, my other ethics paper was on th selling of arms to African countries, whole thing ended up being a scam neway. but yea..you prob. don't want to hear about that either. Newaiz it's ya mutt over and out. Peace!