Namaste

Yoga has been a deep passion of mine for the past three years. Ive tried diff. forms of mediation to learn that they are all the same. I move fast pace and hope to be able to meditate while flowing during yoga. Namaste is spoken upon the class at the end of a yoga session, which translates into "Peace Be Upon You" A Salam Walkkummm:) In another form. The flower ubove is the Lotus flower which resembles self-regeneration the perfect representaion of me. Im thinking of getting it tattoed on my foot, they are always purple so Im thinking of getting one tatted on my foot with purple I love purpler. But we shall see Im excited Yoga tonight:)

Sorry

I guess I had a lot of umph to get out I need to STOP cussing like a champion lol...Not cute at all and its not going to get me anywhere.

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UGHH

NO time in the world to sit down and chill to just blog!! Lol so much on my mind first of all one thing about richmond that has got go to are these nasty ass men! Im looking cute for myself not for you to look at me and say OHH hey cutie, whats your name to get a taste of my sweet voice, and glance @ my ass when I walk away. Litearally every time I walk past one of those nasty asses, I think If my dad were here you would be laid the fuck out, and we will hurt you if my family were here you'd be laid the fuck out. Don't look at me you nasty ass and turn your fucking head. Seriously thats what I think everytime! Its soooo annoying! UGH I think next time it happens Im going to turn and say, "Please don't speak to me like that its' rude and your invading my MENTAL privacy so when you see me don't say shit like that to me" thank you. They'll be like damn thats one crazy ass white girl, or whatever they THINK I am. I almost want to stop every pretty girl walking in that direction like NOOOOO DONT GET MIND RAPPEDD! lol I know its a compliment but I mean really...not really...those guys prob. mess w. women with 5 teeth.UGH! Another thing that invaded my peacefull mind yesterday. I chilled w. a kid for A LITTLE while yesterday. Okay I went to highschool w. this guy and he was the nicest, shyest, sweetest guy. Now he drinks everyday dropped out of school and making racial comments right and left. I tried to be like yo. really calm down you need to get your life together and get on track, what are you doing with yourself, and why are you cussing every TWO minutes? But I couldn't get past the fact he was making racial comments, against EVERYONE I mean every culture, to the point he said I do things like a "white girl" and when I was leaving like come give me a hug and said oh I didnt know thats how americans do......Lol really get a life, there are so much more to people and the depths of our souls. When I talk to somebody Im listneting to their tone, what they have to say, even if it sounds hella phony, ghetto, sarcastic whatever theres a meaning behind that. Seriously peple get over yourselves, NOBOODY is that cute to be running around thinking they are better than anybody else. And I will be the person to tell you so....Or just let you marinate in your own bullshit. Lol ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE I got a job today as a personal stylist in the Active Wear department in Nordstroms. YAYYA...So Im going to be making crucial outfits, and sales hopefully move up and be the personal stylist for Nordstroms how DOPE would that be. OR Something you know your girl wants to make beacoup money and be a billonaire Im not scared to admit it. But Im leaving Suntrust..Im gonna miss the people I work with esp. Jone shes the fucking truth I really like hanging with her, shes like my lil outside teacher in Richmond. Lol But Im sure We'll Keep in Touch:) Newais Im outty bout to hit up the gym...
BLOG more later:)

Jump Up In The Air And Stay There.

Erykah should be coming out with a new album soon, and Im ready to cop it lol:)...Why is my life always so crazy, feels like I barely get time to chill back and breath these days. Its constantly going going going. Theres always something to get done, pay off, somebody to see, somebody not to see I feel like its eating me alive. I feel like Im at a breaking poing where shit is falling apart to the point I can't fix it. I just wish everybody would be happy around me, and make the right choices. I mean if you're happy then guess what the ones who love you are going to be happy your're happy. I just can't take complainers, and Im focusing on this myself. Im living more postively and find security in knowning every little thing is going to be alright no matter what. My main focus is my success and my happiness I want to be in a relationship although I just got out of a relationship. I wouldn't mind being in a serious relatinonship but with the right person, somebody who I can call on as my best friend, but also my lovah. If feels good to finally be free, this past weekend was dramatic but it had to happen. First of all I went home for vday, some drama popped off but it always does. Eric came down trying to be w. me for vaday, but I had to break it down to him that our relationship would never work, Tears were shed but at the end I have a very strong feeling as well as instinct that this is what needed to happen. God put him in New york to make it easier for both of us. He gave us this opportunity to realize there is somebody out there better for the both of us. Eric has such a beautiful heart, and I know that he is going to make a woman feel like such a queen one day. I learned from him, and grew with him through my awkward teenage years. The times I wanted to give up on life, and just say fuck it because I didn't feel good enough he always made me feel better. There was a great purpose for him. But that Purpose was fullfilled. I want to go on a yoga re-treat one of these days in the mountains, clearance of my mind is such a neccesaty, I wonder if I could find a beautiful place to go to thats not to far away from where Im at to clear my mind and be in a serene area. Ive been highstrung. On a postive note Im on my grind like shit, Ive been looking wonderful and feeling wonderful ive been neglecting the gym cuz of the snow but Ill get back @ it this week. Life is beautiful and I appreciate all I have been given. God is Love. *Oh yea Im not here to entertain you this shit is for my clearance of mind*

Two Weeks Deep Ow.

Ive been cutting back on the blogging because the grind has turned up. Never stopped just increased. Lol whatever I act like I'm busting my ass everyday I'm really not. Actually living the good life, school and part time work. Life is changing everday, and its only for the better. Im going to have a new family member soon, Mr.Doug Chapman so yea treat him like a Badawy if you ever catch him I don't think my sister has enough time in the day to sit back and read this but she'd be proud that Im shoutin her man out. Yeaaaaa girl I did that for you, lol newaiz you know Im still on my Get Rich or Die Trying, motivated I want to end up in a industry that I LOVE a Job that LOVE! man the more Im working @ the bank the more Im learning about myself, right now its getting me through my bills and putting extra bread in my pocket, but I won't allow myself to do it for to long. Im a rebel by law and my heart won't allow me to settle in a seat being paid for my time, when I aint really changing shit, Im just putting somebody elses ideas to work, their ideas to get more cash flow, but umm nothing against banking you know it gets the job done, its deff. a good job to have and I can walk away from in one day with more knowledge on my shoulders. I deff. paid off from working there, and still am working there and for a college job its deff. not bad. It was my sister's bday yesterday she turned 26......shes still a baby and Im still a baby but we're really growing up. Its crazy thinking my sister might be getting married withing the next three years and having babies,I really want my sister to beocme extremely succesufl and have babies soon, I think it will make my dad happy. He misses having his kids around, and having a grandchild I feel will shine a extra light in his life ;) I love my dad he's the best person on earth. Other then that I have a lot on my mind, just wrote a paper on the massacre of dolphins in Taiji Japan look it up if you give a fuck, if you don't then umm...keep reading, my other ethics paper was on th selling of arms to African countries, whole thing ended up being a scam neway. but yea..you prob. don't want to hear about that either. Newaiz it's ya mutt over and out. Peace!

1st day of classes

I had my first three classes this morning and all my teachers seem okayy..Im going to get all A's regardless of the teachers two of my classes accounting and econ i need to study my assss offf like I should be reading right now and not typing but I can still have somewhat of a life cuz its still just the first day. But beleive that the blogging will be verrry minimal for the next couple of months! Newaiz one of my teachers is 26 with her PHd and pregnant. she told the class dont fuck w. my i have a lot of hormones inside of me..like straight up lmao soo very entertaining. I saw a kid I graduated w. in my econ class!! and my roomate too talk about fucking distractions its all good though we're all gonna get A's , my friend from highschool is kinda ghetto now like he talks ghetto but i know hes not he nevverrrr has been thats not him hes more like a goofy fun loving cool guy hahahahah whateva we all are growing up slowly but surely, and we all have our glitches whether we want to approach them or not. NEWAIZ Im fucking irked and thats why I wanted to write! first of all Ive been having problems w. people lately first of all I fake, yes i do Im a fucking non decisive ass bitch, that can't make her mind up BUT at least I know this and Im working on it!!!! But I don't priorotize if i fake its cuz I just want to be a lazy person, its NOT cause im w. somebody else because MAJORITY of the time if Im w. somebody else I will invite you!!! But what the fuck people who were my best fucking friends are no longer my friends at all, the person who was suppose to be there for me through thick and thin isnt! and its just like..damn..well what can I do, but the fact that her friends talk bout me is not cool, I live in richmond like this is partially my home and when I go to n.va I go to see my family thats it! I think if somebody wants to see me then they would call me!!! Im the one driving all the fucking time coming up there, I mean we're both at fault seriously we really are, shes busy and Im busy and she hates me for it, but life will go on my heart isn't cold but its real, Im trying to get my degrees and roll out and if somebody is on the same level as me then they will be next to me! DUH thats right, a wise man once told me it doesn't matter how long you know somebody, you shouldn't keep em around just cuz you've known them forever...It sucks but what can I do.....just give it time. and oh yea if you really have a problem then why not approach it instead of talking to people I don't even know about it!

Haiti

Could you imagine working all day ready to come home to the family but couldn't make it on time before the destruction set, getting to the house a little to late, wishing you had perished with your loved ones rather w.o. them,the little you'd been working for all gone, nothing to show for it the home you've always known diminshed in a split second.I know I couldn't this sorrow fills my heart today and I wonder why Haiti of all places on earth why Haiti, this was done by no man but a higher power. Why does this never happen to western world countries? we had Katrina here in the states, but in Louisiana in the hood of all places with a creole culture, the same as Haiti I hope this turns out for the best for Haiti that they themselves rebuild Haiti not a foreign country, re-build haiti with all their beautiful countries culture. I hope the people come together and love eachother even more than they did before, I hope violence doesn't manifest because of this disaster TO everybody that is reading this for the next few days have that EXTRA love in your heart that extra THought of Peace.lets spread the vibes world vibe and be there w. haiti, spread the vibes amongst the waves. if you don't believe in waves why do you think you feel people so hard, you know what their gonna say you know what they feel LET Love Live