Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Yung Yogi

Kona Hawian CoffeE!

Second day in a row I've woken up @ 740am to go to yoga class! I'm determined to get back on track. That will consist of when I get my check buying groceries to last me two weeks so I don't spend excess money eating out, going to the gym at least three times a week, cleaning my room at least once a week, staying organized, focusing on my studies, working hard at work, making money, keeping care of the things i do have. It's super independent women time, over this way! anyone can appreciate that, ya girl has bills to pay! Chillen at crossroads right now downing a small coffee, yesterday it was french vanilla, today its sweetie chocolate something, and the kona straight out Hawaiii! I have an exam in two hours, Ive been studying feel like I know the information, and I don't want to over work my brain! This guy that my homegirl a-dreezy is feeling is standing in front of me, he treated the people in front of me with such equality and love that I feel like shit! lmao I wish adrian was here to see that, she'd be like let me go get his number right now! haha as soon as these two girls walked into the cafe I felt they were at unease with their environment. They weren't used to being surrounded by college students on their laptops, golden retreievers running around outside, and hot white men philosphying about life on that patio. I kind of observed them in their essence, as if I was better. Until A-dreezy's boy stepped in the building and taught me a little something something. For one be a better person, treat everyone equally and if you sense they feel out of place do you're best to make them feel comfy. The more you practice at this the more natural it will be. So when the time comes and you're with someone you really do care about, and THEY feel out of place you will have the practice and sophistication of making them feel comfy. Today in yoga I concentrated heavily on my breathing, its the only way I could keep up with the class. We were doing normal poses, all that I have done before, but for some reason my body was not as strong as I thought it to be. My breather and PRANA YAMA (breath inside of you) lead me through the practice, I left the gym feeling much lighter, appreciative, and aware of the birds and trees. You know I love the spiritual side of life but it won't make me money. Right now Looooveee my job at nordstroms its fun, and I know it's where I'm suppose to be right now in my life. As far as after college, and career wise, we'll see I just get this anxious feeling that I have to know NOW!, and I know that's not the case, I know it will come, but it feels good just to know. I do have plans, but you know plans are plans, and life is so unpredictable you're plans can always become un-planned. I do feel like I'm at a turning point in my life(not to be a hypocrit as I type my emotional expressions via blogger, rather than studying for my exam in two hours)BUT! i do feel comfterable with the information. I'm scared to over-study and forget the information. My family has come to a fork in the road, where it is TIME for me to step up my game! No more playing games, no more skipping work, skipping class, taking that extra drink, spending that excess dollar on bullshit! no its time for me to make a life for myself, and be able to support myself! I don't want to as my dad for money anymore, he has enough people he has to support and I want more then ever to take that burdern off his shoulders. Im so unique loving, giving, understanding and beautiful because of what my FATHER has done for me, the advise, wisdom, and security he has given me the past 21 years. I want that part of him to stay vibrant forever I can't dull his heart anymore by taking taking taking, like bob marley said you gotta give a little and take a little.! Ive done my part of taking now its time to give back to him! So Im focused man, no more spending money on bullshit, I have to acheive all my goals, and your either with me or not! ya know Im not going to say your against me, hopefully you're just doin you. But im on the path to rightouesness, me and my family the people I love, and those who understand the light that is guiding me!

Monday, August 2, 2010

French Vanilla Coffee Crossroads




Your Presence is missed A-dreezy!


Life is constantly revolving and changing, everyday is a day to learn! About you and about others. What can I say,everybody is officialy moved in at my crib. The house will consist of Me,Angelica,Adrian and Bobi:) hopefully this will work out for the best as of right now I can deff. say, that Im happy with everyone living in the house :) Ya girl is back to being 100% single, that means not talking to anybody! hahaha not even a man that hits me up on a daily. The way life is looking though I wouldn't have the time :) but boy would I love the comfort of a man. Its only natural, we were made for eachother. Sovreinty is ofcourse necessary , you must love yourself and know yourself before you can love and know someone else. Thats where I'm at right now. The next man I'm with should treat me like a queen , and I will do the same just for him. Relationships must be balanced me giving to him as much as he gives to me. The last guy I talked to was just about games, you know its like if you go all the way go all the way there is no half assing over here. Let me know keep on talking about men like they are the only thing that takes up my mentality. But I'm going to end that subject with "KEEP THINGS FRESH" never dull. Something is always sprouting whether its a relationship or a tree. Constantly changing and growing, until the determination of its life on earth, otherwise energy is constantly flowing, and dullness will be a sign of being unaware. Right now Im taking a course called Financial Management. We are concentrating on stocks and bonds right now, and determining the rate of return on a stock and or bond. The next test is tom. I'm doing well in the math, but will start concentrating on the differences between the two stocks and bonds.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Gosh.

I just wrote a really long post and it deleted:( Well I finally got a new laptop so I'm back into the internet world on full affect. Maybe now Ill know what random people are talking about when refering to the news. I felt like a complete dumbass when a lady was talking to me about the oil spill in the ocean, two days later after the fact, and Im like whattt?????? LOL yes I turned my cable off to, just another $50 dollar bill for shit i prob. don't need to be watching anyway. Once I graduate I'll grant myself the luxury of getting cable, internet is good for now. Newaiz its sunday morning, and Im here at whole foods, chillen w. time till 1130 then its off to work! I love my job so its all good, so many opportunities, its just my thing. I could deff. see myself working within the fashion industry for the rest of my life! I enjoy putting outfits together for people, helping them, conversating w. my customers, just the whole sales experience is awesome. I also can become a buyer for Nordstrms, but that would be in about 2 to 3 years, and would need me to move to Seattle ,Washington. Buyers use to be in Tysons but I guess they moved them all out, maybe it was to expensive to have office space in N.Va.Something to help them cut the costs Im sure. If I could find another great store to buy for like Saks, or Neiman Marcus that are based in N.VA or Miami, Nyc that would be even better. I don't think Seattle would really be my thing. Last night was so much fun I hung out w. a special boo no names ofcourse! Who you know is great! We went to escape and it wasn't as bad I thought. Got one to many drinks there and then headed to Infuzion which is mad nice but needs more promotion! Next thing I know my wallet is again gone. lmao well Im pretty sure its at my friends house, but when I went back to get their door was locked:( and ofcourse they were knocked out hahahahaha....So I come to wholefoods to get breakfest(only place that takes checks) and my check wouldnt read so I got breakfest for free:) I would say its a pretty beautiful sunday!!!!Sunday is the day this year my boo Zamzam and I both have our birthdays on a sunday this year. My birthday im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited. I love brining people together no bullshit i love the omg i havent seen you in so long, or hey girl how you doin scene. Just lovely:) Newaiz its going to be a pool party Super legit, a list on the front if your name IS on it than you can bring only two other guests. Also its going to be $5 for guys and $2 for girls. There is going to be to much money going into this to not charge people. and last year I had ONE person to bring me a gift out of life 50 people. RUDE! Shout out to (Gabe Itoka) for having manners big ups love! newaiz gotta head to work update later. Classes starting tom.!!!

Friday, May 14, 2010

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Mind Food

The Real Thing
Love Should Feel Good

Love should feel good. Relationships that leave you feeling depleted, sad and making excuses are not based in love.


"Often in our lives, we fall prey to the idea of a thing rather than actually experiencing the thing itself. We see this at play in our love lives and in the love lives of our friends, our family, and even fictional characters. The conceptualizing, depiction, and pursuit of true love are multimillion-dollar industries in the modern world. However, very little of what is offered actually leads us to an authentic experience of love. Moreover, as we grasp for what we think we want and fail to find it, we may suffer and bring suffering to others. When this is the case, when we suffer more than we feel healed, we can be fairly certain that what we have found is not love but something else.

When we feel anxious, excited, nervous, and thrilled, we are probably experiencing romance, not love. Romance can be a lot of fun as long as we do not try to make too much of it. If we try to make more of it than it is, the romance then becomes painful. Romance may lead to love, but it may also fade without blossoming into anything more than a flirtation. If we cling to it and try to make it more, we might find ourselves pining for a fantasy, or worse, stuck in a relationship that was never meant to last.

Real love is identifiable by the way it makes us feel. Love should feel good. There is a peaceful quality to an authentic experience of love that penetrates to our core, touching a part of ourselves that has always been there. True love activates this inner being, filling us with warmth and light. An authentic experience of love does not ask us to look a certain way, drive a certain car, or have a certain job. It takes us as we are, no changes required. When people truly love us, their love for us awakens our love for ourselves. They remind us that what we seek outside of ourselves is a mirror image of the lover within. In this way, true love never makes us feel needy or lacking or anxious. Instead, true love empowers us with its implicit message that we are, always have been, and always will be, made of love. " DO


Graciela Bilis, MEd, MS

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Free Thoughts Poh A Penny








Each one of these pictures, and the video depicts a message I would like to get across. First off I'm passionate for the evacuation of America from all countries. I seem to concentrate on Iraq for personal cultural reasons. Also Iraq is the occupation that people are familiar with most. Im' against the occupation for the sake of humanity. We have the ultimate power to delegate humanities role. If we want to fight to the death over land, resources,power ego, than we will, If humanity wants to accept the natural peace,understanding, cooperation, dissipation of anger than we can. United states is an activator of these war like causes, because we have the weapons, power, brand name, and use to have the funds. But we will fall if our egoic honchos at the top remain concerned about the greed of the dollar. Not for the dollar because of course this county has to bring in money to stay a float, but there many other ways to do this. Iraq is TRYING to be a developing country, but how can it flourish when others are stealing from it, or invading it, and killing its people. Iraq should be left alone, or funded to increase its Standard of living but not invaded and raped of its resources, and access of becoming a base player in the global economy. Having oil Iraq will be able to increase its exports bringing more capital into their economy and, increasing the value of their currency. Yea the united states needs to focus on the American people first when building good education systems, hospitals, shelters, and the base needs for healthy living ,but if you are to invade a country they need more help than us. Second, the second video you see THESE GUYS DUMBASSES ARE PLAYING A GAME!!!! are they not playing a fucking game. They are bored as all hell in Iraq with nothing to do that they proceed to kill a man because he is carrying a camera on his back!!!! ItS FUCKING DISGUTSTING! and I hope the affiliators including bush get their karma, Actually I don't care if Karma comes to them or NOT! I just don't want it to happen again! If we have globe with seperated countries, shit if they want to kill eachother go ahead! But how can I be a proud citizen of a country when I see something like this?!?!? We have peace here why not try establish the peace in Iraq? Man its so fucked up foreal Theres no reason for this! And these american soilders.......forealll......I hope I don't get my ass whooped by one, cuz its really not their fault...Majority of them don't know what and the real reasons why they are over there, but they are getting something out of it....Thats how I really feel..but Im out had to let some steam off...

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Namaste



Yoga has been a deep passion of mine for the past three years. Ive tried diff. forms of mediation to learn that they are all the same. I move fast pace and hope to be able to meditate while flowing during yoga. Namaste is spoken upon the class at the end of a yoga session, which translates into "Peace Be Upon You" A Salam Walkkummm:) In another form. The flower ubove is the Lotus flower which resembles self-regeneration the perfect representaion of me. Im thinking of getting it tattoed on my foot, they are always purple so Im thinking of getting one tatted on my foot with purple I love purpler. But we shall see Im excited Yoga tonight:)

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Sorry

I guess I had a lot of umph to get out I need to STOP cussing like a champion lol...Not cute at all and its not going to get me anywhere.

something to make you laugh

http://www.theonion.com/content/index

UGHH

NO time in the world to sit down and chill to just blog!! Lol so much on my mind first of all one thing about richmond that has got go to are these nasty ass men! Im looking cute for myself not for you to look at me and say OHH hey cutie, whats your name to get a taste of my sweet voice, and glance @ my ass when I walk away. Litearally every time I walk past one of those nasty asses, I think If my dad were here you would be laid the fuck out, and we will hurt you if my family were here you'd be laid the fuck out. Don't look at me you nasty ass and turn your fucking head. Seriously thats what I think everytime! Its soooo annoying! UGH I think next time it happens Im going to turn and say, "Please don't speak to me like that its' rude and your invading my MENTAL privacy so when you see me don't say shit like that to me" thank you. They'll be like damn thats one crazy ass white girl, or whatever they THINK I am. I almost want to stop every pretty girl walking in that direction like NOOOOO DONT GET MIND RAPPEDD! lol I know its a compliment but I mean really...not really...those guys prob. mess w. women with 5 teeth.UGH! Another thing that invaded my peacefull mind yesterday. I chilled w. a kid for A LITTLE while yesterday. Okay I went to highschool w. this guy and he was the nicest, shyest, sweetest guy. Now he drinks everyday dropped out of school and making racial comments right and left. I tried to be like yo. really calm down you need to get your life together and get on track, what are you doing with yourself, and why are you cussing every TWO minutes? But I couldn't get past the fact he was making racial comments, against EVERYONE I mean every culture, to the point he said I do things like a "white girl" and when I was leaving like come give me a hug and said oh I didnt know thats how americans do......Lol really get a life, there are so much more to people and the depths of our souls. When I talk to somebody Im listneting to their tone, what they have to say, even if it sounds hella phony, ghetto, sarcastic whatever theres a meaning behind that. Seriously peple get over yourselves, NOBOODY is that cute to be running around thinking they are better than anybody else. And I will be the person to tell you so....Or just let you marinate in your own bullshit. Lol ON A MORE POSITIVE NOTE I got a job today as a personal stylist in the Active Wear department in Nordstroms. YAYYA...So Im going to be making crucial outfits, and sales hopefully move up and be the personal stylist for Nordstroms how DOPE would that be. OR Something you know your girl wants to make beacoup money and be a billonaire Im not scared to admit it. But Im leaving Suntrust..Im gonna miss the people I work with esp. Jone shes the fucking truth I really like hanging with her, shes like my lil outside teacher in Richmond. Lol But Im sure We'll Keep in Touch:) Newais Im outty bout to hit up the gym...
BLOG more later:)

Monday, February 15, 2010

Jump Up In The Air And Stay There.

Erykah should be coming out with a new album soon, and Im ready to cop it lol:)...Why is my life always so crazy, feels like I barely get time to chill back and breath these days. Its constantly going going going. Theres always something to get done, pay off, somebody to see, somebody not to see I feel like its eating me alive. I feel like Im at a breaking poing where shit is falling apart to the point I can't fix it. I just wish everybody would be happy around me, and make the right choices. I mean if you're happy then guess what the ones who love you are going to be happy your're happy. I just can't take complainers, and Im focusing on this myself. Im living more postively and find security in knowning every little thing is going to be alright no matter what. My main focus is my success and my happiness I want to be in a relationship although I just got out of a relationship. I wouldn't mind being in a serious relatinonship but with the right person, somebody who I can call on as my best friend, but also my lovah. If feels good to finally be free, this past weekend was dramatic but it had to happen. First of all I went home for vday, some drama popped off but it always does. Eric came down trying to be w. me for vaday, but I had to break it down to him that our relationship would never work, Tears were shed but at the end I have a very strong feeling as well as instinct that this is what needed to happen. God put him in New york to make it easier for both of us. He gave us this opportunity to realize there is somebody out there better for the both of us. Eric has such a beautiful heart, and I know that he is going to make a woman feel like such a queen one day. I learned from him, and grew with him through my awkward teenage years. The times I wanted to give up on life, and just say fuck it because I didn't feel good enough he always made me feel better. There was a great purpose for him. But that Purpose was fullfilled. I want to go on a yoga re-treat one of these days in the mountains, clearance of my mind is such a neccesaty, I wonder if I could find a beautiful place to go to thats not to far away from where Im at to clear my mind and be in a serene area. Ive been highstrung. On a postive note Im on my grind like shit, Ive been looking wonderful and feeling wonderful ive been neglecting the gym cuz of the snow but Ill get back @ it this week. Life is beautiful and I appreciate all I have been given. God is Love. *Oh yea Im not here to entertain you this shit is for my clearance of mind*

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Two Weeks Deep Ow.

Ive been cutting back on the blogging because the grind has turned up. Never stopped just increased. Lol whatever I act like I'm busting my ass everyday I'm really not. Actually living the good life, school and part time work. Life is changing everday, and its only for the better. Im going to have a new family member soon, Mr.Doug Chapman so yea treat him like a Badawy if you ever catch him I don't think my sister has enough time in the day to sit back and read this but she'd be proud that Im shoutin her man out. Yeaaaaa girl I did that for you, lol newaiz you know Im still on my Get Rich or Die Trying, motivated I want to end up in a industry that I LOVE a Job that LOVE! man the more Im working @ the bank the more Im learning about myself, right now its getting me through my bills and putting extra bread in my pocket, but I won't allow myself to do it for to long. Im a rebel by law and my heart won't allow me to settle in a seat being paid for my time, when I aint really changing shit, Im just putting somebody elses ideas to work, their ideas to get more cash flow, but umm nothing against banking you know it gets the job done, its deff. a good job to have and I can walk away from in one day with more knowledge on my shoulders. I deff. paid off from working there, and still am working there and for a college job its deff. not bad. It was my sister's bday yesterday she turned 26......shes still a baby and Im still a baby but we're really growing up. Its crazy thinking my sister might be getting married withing the next three years and having babies,I really want my sister to beocme extremely succesufl and have babies soon, I think it will make my dad happy. He misses having his kids around, and having a grandchild I feel will shine a extra light in his life ;) I love my dad he's the best person on earth. Other then that I have a lot on my mind, just wrote a paper on the massacre of dolphins in Taiji Japan look it up if you give a fuck, if you don't then umm...keep reading, my other ethics paper was on th selling of arms to African countries, whole thing ended up being a scam neway. but yea..you prob. don't want to hear about that either. Newaiz it's ya mutt over and out. Peace!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

1st day of classes

I had my first three classes this morning and all my teachers seem okayy..Im going to get all A's regardless of the teachers two of my classes accounting and econ i need to study my assss offf like I should be reading right now and not typing but I can still have somewhat of a life cuz its still just the first day. But beleive that the blogging will be verrry minimal for the next couple of months! Newaiz one of my teachers is 26 with her PHd and pregnant. she told the class dont fuck w. my i have a lot of hormones inside of me..like straight up lmao soo very entertaining. I saw a kid I graduated w. in my econ class!! and my roomate too talk about fucking distractions its all good though we're all gonna get A's , my friend from highschool is kinda ghetto now like he talks ghetto but i know hes not he nevverrrr has been thats not him hes more like a goofy fun loving cool guy hahahahah whateva we all are growing up slowly but surely, and we all have our glitches whether we want to approach them or not. NEWAIZ Im fucking irked and thats why I wanted to write! first of all Ive been having problems w. people lately first of all I fake, yes i do Im a fucking non decisive ass bitch, that can't make her mind up BUT at least I know this and Im working on it!!!! But I don't priorotize if i fake its cuz I just want to be a lazy person, its NOT cause im w. somebody else because MAJORITY of the time if Im w. somebody else I will invite you!!! But what the fuck people who were my best fucking friends are no longer my friends at all, the person who was suppose to be there for me through thick and thin isnt! and its just like..damn..well what can I do, but the fact that her friends talk bout me is not cool, I live in richmond like this is partially my home and when I go to n.va I go to see my family thats it! I think if somebody wants to see me then they would call me!!! Im the one driving all the fucking time coming up there, I mean we're both at fault seriously we really are, shes busy and Im busy and she hates me for it, but life will go on my heart isn't cold but its real, Im trying to get my degrees and roll out and if somebody is on the same level as me then they will be next to me! DUH thats right, a wise man once told me it doesn't matter how long you know somebody, you shouldn't keep em around just cuz you've known them forever...It sucks but what can I do.....just give it time. and oh yea if you really have a problem then why not approach it instead of talking to people I don't even know about it!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Haiti

Could you imagine working all day ready to come home to the family but couldn't make it on time before the destruction set, getting to the house a little to late, wishing you had perished with your loved ones rather w.o. them,the little you'd been working for all gone, nothing to show for it the home you've always known diminshed in a split second.I know I couldn't this sorrow fills my heart today and I wonder why Haiti of all places on earth why Haiti, this was done by no man but a higher power. Why does this never happen to western world countries? we had Katrina here in the states, but in Louisiana in the hood of all places with a creole culture, the same as Haiti I hope this turns out for the best for Haiti that they themselves rebuild Haiti not a foreign country, re-build haiti with all their beautiful countries culture. I hope the people come together and love eachother even more than they did before, I hope violence doesn't manifest because of this disaster TO everybody that is reading this for the next few days have that EXTRA love in your heart that extra THought of Peace.lets spread the vibes world vibe and be there w. haiti, spread the vibes amongst the waves. if you don't believe in waves why do you think you feel people so hard, you know what their gonna say you know what they feel LET Love Live

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

COMING SOON

THE SITUATION IN THE GAZA STRIP TWO AMERICAN STUDENTS ABDUCTED BY ISRAELI TROOPS FOR PUBLISHING THE HAPPENINGS IN PALESTINE....

Okay Wow.



I DON'T FEEL LIKE DEALING WITH MEN! I MEAN DOES ANYBODY FEEL ME. IM JUST FALLING OUT OF LOVE OKAY LIKE GIVE ME A FUCKIN BREAK! Why do guys think they can pounce on you and stick their tounge down your throat because you said your single, and just going w. the flow NO THAT DOES NOT MEAN I want to sleep w. you or even come in body contact w. you! Please get that straight, I don't care if the girls you sleep w. the first week aren't hoes, and end up getting in relationships I see them as having no respect for themselves, and needy of a mans attention Im past that and no Im not trying to teach anybody anything they will learn for themselves! but Im not that girl I don't need to mess around to feel good about myself, thats not the trick for me hear it accept it swallow it and digest it cuz Im Not budging. To bad this situation was a reallly cool guy besides the fact that he pounced me, if the pouncing seized then I could have chilled w. him tom. but that shit was cut quick, like ummmmmmmmm yea Ima b ur friendd.....jeeze what a ruined friendship! Kissing him only made me think of Eric now you know thats not right, nobody gonna compare to Eric right now Im trying to get over him but im not yet over the hump, and I haven't met anybody who has struck me! I want a succesfull man with an education ,class, soul, intelligence, soul soul, generosity, can't just settle if Im breaking up with the love ive only ever known then best believe the next will be the best! I JUST WANT TO FALL IN LOVE ALL OVER AGAIN AND DANCE TO MANHATTAN WITH A GLASS OF WINE AND BLUNT IN MY HAND!!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

PhoneLess World

No phone for two days and honestly I feel like Im loosing air to breathe, yes its that serious lol I feel good though I don't have to answer to people I don't want to talk to, and all the people Im hanging out with is basically totally up to destinys hands, cuz who ever I run into then heyyy. LOL My mind has been very extra lately and Im loving it, nothing better than interesting things to think and talk about. Boys boys boys, I need to be single for a good while and get myself refocused I don't think Im ready and want a relationship. I hope everybody understands how much a relationship really demands of a person, its work!! for us females, we should always make our man feel special, let him know how good he is, how much we need him, cook for him, care for him, love him..sorry but I just don't have the effort right now with school work, and trying to have a social life I can't do all that, friends yes friends are fine but anything more and your being demanding!! One thing about me is Im not really scared to say shit, I might not say it or hesitate either cuz I don't want to talk to you or because I might sound stupid,so one thing i have to say is im not scared of success and Im not scared to say I want to own a penthouse, right now in MIA but that might change, have a yacht I can hop on and cruise the ocean maybe not own one, but at least rent one out. I have soul, I have love, Im NOT greedy, but I am a bit materialstic Im a woman who grew up in the U.S. what do you expect no matter how many drugs I take Im not gonna be humble enuff to not want the luxuries. But ima get it watch mothafuckas and see Banana is exactly what she says she is!! Ima get it whether you like it or not, and best beleive you will be invited for a party on my yacht just you can see...I love yoga, and meditation I have my sides gotta stay true to my Gemini whoot whoot~ So I miss my bugsy bear so much, its hard growing up dude, like Im finally starting to feel comfy living outside of my parents house, I use to cry every fuckin much thats how much I missed being at home, but my heart grew stronger in the end, and I know its time to grow up its time to make a name for myself, and be able to support myself and even my family, because I still want my father to travel the world with Parisa Joon when they get older, I still want him to have the time of his life and knowing him Im sure he does to, Hes done everything for me and my siblings i mean everything, thats the least I could do. Newaiz Ive realized its really time to focus on Hannah and what she wants to accomplish and not all these outside things, theres soooooo much I want to do. I want to travel the world, I want to move to Beruit after I get my MBA or To get my MBA, I need to get in touch w. my ancestors. I want to travel to "3rd world" and help, and learn, and grow, I want to teach yoga, I want to own my own business, I want a great husband who I stay w. for the rest of my life, not even a husband but a mate, I want a beautiful house, I want to give!!, I want to take, stay in shape, speak french, live accroess seas for at least a year, I hope I acheive all my goals but im a young girl with a old soul so I have some time:) Love is Love


FREE GAZA STRIP!!!!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Watch this now

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40MfeJn0360

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Layals 21ST

okay so my boo just 21 what,,,Ive known this girl since 10th grade, since Im remincing I met Layal in my math class she says she hated me cuz i was the only other girl who could dress as well as her hahaha thats why i love her she actually keeps it real not surprisingly, we became friends in the middle of the year I have no idea how lmao..newaiz thats my boo dinner w. her fam. is always nice made me think about my fam. and miss them so much:( gosh its crazy how grown I feel though man, like Im about to be 21 but I have some maturing I need to do before bringing a man into the family equation im still a baby and my fam. is going to be like ummm...no you stay young, cuz thats it once I start bringing men into the equation and relationships with serious measures my parents are going to claim themselves old and we don't wannnntttt that lol! plus i gotta get my MBA before ne of that isniess starts to happen the ones who stick around will stick around the ones who don't i wont remember. Well we went to eyebar and layal was buying drinks like it was her job we had four shots OF WHO KNOWS WHAT.and a blue motercycle i could not finish. I had so much fun and made it home safe the same day lol jan. 7th. Man I can't wait to travel, im thinking of where to go in march, maybe somewhere in the states or caribean i don't know yet but I know I have to go somewhere, its just easier if you buy the ticket somewhere cuz then you have to go!!! Im now getting Financial Aid fuck my life! im going to pay them off this year though fuckkkk thattt I don't want anymore fucking bills in my name dude, im starting to pay em off now!!!

LOVE PEACE AND HAPPINES

Monday, January 4, 2010

NEW CARY STREET GYM EXCITED!!!


Jan 4th

Is it weird I love waking up at the Wee hours of the day. Its early but my soul has just awakened into the world of foreign images, no dreams last night, I need to start back on yoga I always use to dream when yoga came into play! The new gym has opened today and I need to make some time to go and just do it, so much to do I have to go to FAFSA get this money inshallah for next semester:) Things have been on the up and up lately I mean I still have problems but Im not focusing on them so much, their in the back of my mind but Im not worried Ill take care of them when I can. Avatar is a really good movie, i loved the message that the movie sent out what I got out of it is appreciate nature love nature and feel it, when we die we become the earth. We decompose, The people who made the movie are incrediblly creative/

Does anybody else find it weird that we sit down to watch something, lauging out loud like who came up with this concept that we sit down and watch scenes, I think some guy was sitting there watching his kids play with a ball or running around and was like wow,,,we should try to watch this lol I have no idea, but now people do it so damn much!!!
Yesterday I was society WHORE!!! I went shopping in the mall , and felt like shit lmao Ive always had this rebel mentaty to go against society, just in the fact that I don't want to give money to people I don't fucking know Ive said this before I would rather go to a market and purchase from somebody who has put passion into his food or work rather than corporate being made in a factory, These days I feel like its hard to find quality merchandise from markets, majority of it is in the malls. In other countries I don't think its like this. When I own my stores the customers wil still see my face, and when it gets to the point when I own 5 of them, they will know the manager well and my picutre and my story will be on the desks. If they want to know more about me. I will make all my stores personal , a pamphlet of my journey. This year Im going to concentrate on listening to people more, peter told me I always intterupt so I guess thats a flaw of mine that I never knew of cuz I think i listen very well, but Im going to focus on this.Im going to focus on school intentley and inshalla get only As and Bs next semeter, Im going to keep my job, Spring Break Im getting the fuck outta VA, and going on a trip. During the summer Im going to take summer courses, work and travel for one week somewhere, I have to keep traveling even if its for a week, I know Im in gods plans to travel the world, my desire to leave this country has been so strong since I was 15 years old. Im going to remain positive and loving all throughout 2010 and understanding, I feel like understanding is a veryyyyy important quality we are all human and we all make mistakes, trying to understand more than judge somebody will lead to a common ground, when you can kind of put yourself in the shoes of that person, also on the same line as forgiving them. Understanding is a beautiful concept, and it gives you saftey and security like you know whats going, on even if you don't you have a good idea for yourself.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Saturday Night

Wusup Word, my days come and go when I feel like posting on here:) New years 2010 was amazing! The typical Banana had no idea what I was doing until about 10pm hit and I was driving in N.va I really was about to kick it w. the parents lol. BUTT I ended up going to a party in dupont circle with some awssome people, a few I had knew in highschool when I went to Marshall oddly enuff , it was jsut fucking great, I hope my year is is as nice as my new years was! That would be Fun, Outgoing, Good People, Successfull People, sexy atmophere, getting paid(cuz it was pay day) and family! yessirr..Now im in good ole richmond bout to go out w. ebaum to relax and chit chat:) work was str8 today but I deff. was about to kirk out on the manager for acting like a snob w. me, lol but Im patient as shit when it comes to people!!!!! By the way Im a huge hipacrit Im steadliy about 2 b like why can't somebody pick up the phone or text back but can text you 5 hours later and act like they received nothing, but i do the sammeee thing lol not that its right its totally immature but all the time Il text somebody BACK about a diff. subject cuz I either was with somebody else, or didn't feel like talking........sorry no interesting subjects today, Kind of on my chill shit right now Im going to smoke a jay tom and see avatar in 3D:) hahahahaha its going to be amazzzzingg cuz I never smoke so im sure im going to be super on my geekiness lol.....Friday going on a ski trip for the weekend going to tear the slopes uppp!! hahahahahahaha..Newaiz can't wait to ..wait im living lol Love.bANANA